Well guys..I’ve recently had another melt down so I’m finding it hard to find time to blog. I can hardly remember most days now, let alone what I eat. =( Let me try to catch up and spark my memory
Friday morning started off bright and early with a yogurt bowl of Chobani Mango 2% Greek yogurt, a cut up plum, raw oats, and almonds and dried cranberries. Not gonna lie…just looking at this makes me want to eat it right now!
I then headed to class to watch half my classmates present their supplement company research projects. Boring. -_-
So Thursday morning the babies had me up at 6am. They didn’t care that I didn’t have class until 10am. I don’t understand why they couldn’t just bug our guest on the couch instead of me! Is that bad hostess-thinking? =p
Anyway, I got up and made us all breakfast. Green smoothies! Martin had never had a green smoothie so I had to show him the light. Inside was milk, spinach, frozen banana, frozen mango chunks, and coconut oil. Delicious! He thought it was just okay, but this guy is annoyingly under impressed so whatever. =P
I know it’s my own fault that my life is so go-go-go. But for some reason I’m having trouble changing that. Perhaps it’s because I’m afraid if I don’t hang out with people, I’ll lose friends fast (like in The Sims! Did anyone else grow up playing that game? It’s apparently scarred me for life.).
Well let me try to get you up to date, at least for Thursday.
Up early and had an old favorite: oatmeal with mixed berries and chia seeds cooked in and topped with a spoonful of peanut butter and dried cranberries. Mm! I always forget how much this satisfies me.
I thought about sitting around and doing some homework reading..then had this idea that I could do that reading on the bike!! Sadly, at that time in the morning, it takes double the time to get to my gym due to traffic. -_- So I only got in a 30 minute bike before I had to head back home to get ready for class. Oh well. Better than nothing!
Man was I tired when I awoke Tuesday morning. My body hurt, but in a good way!
I didn’t have class until 10am (one class not meeting), but I was still up before 7am because I had stuff to do! First off: breakfast. Exact same breakfast as Monday but this time shoved in the almond butter jar so I could painfully scrap all of the dry almond butter off! Success.
Then it was off to the gym for me for a 30 minute run! It felt so great to be running again, especially with my new running mix. I’m becoming less of a fan of early morning workouts though (besides swimming) because I just could not cool off enough after it. My hair was pretty darn curly today. -_-
Man when I get behind, I get behind!
First off, I wanted to say thank you for all the kind words and thoughts my way. =) I really am doing okay. I think the turning point for me is acknowledging to myself I’m not okay so I can work on making myself okay. Such as getting out of conversations I’m uncomfortable such as talking about dieting, and really trying to focus on just getting through my school work so I can graduate.
Monday’s breakfast was a delicious yogurt bowl of texture. Starbucks Greek honey parfait with a ripe plum and dry almond butter. You know when all the dry parts are stuck to the bottom of the jar? That’s where I’m at right now and I refuse to waste any of it!
Ug. I’m exhausted. Today was really hard emotionally. Too much time to sit around and think. Think about letting go of what I thought was my dreams. Accepting that I have some issues I need to work on. Trying to figure out how to tell people about those issues.
All the thinking was very emotional.
I was up around 7am. That’s sleeping in for me. Then I made a hot breakfast of Kodiak Cakes with maple syrup, almond butter, fresh plum, and dried cranberries.
Being productive, I got a lot of preparing done for my last counseling session tomorrow for my Nutritional Counseling class. I feel prepared and ready to finish this assignment.
Morning everyone. =) I finally have a full day off from everything so let me get caught up here! I opened Saturday morning so I was up bright and early at 4am.
By my first 10 minute break I was hungry and my boss had brought in homemade chocolate chip cookies. Yes, I normally don’t like chocolate in my cookies but I ate one with an iced Sumatra Blue Batalk Clover Brewed Coffee. Delicious. Man unsweetened coffee with a sweet treat is good.
Hi hi everyone. I gotta admit, yesterday turned into a rough day. Do I say this too often?
Started out great with a bowl of Chobani Blackberry Greek yogurt with raw oats, chia seeds, drippy almond butter, banana, and dried cranberries. It was nice to sit down at the table, read the news (lawl I call Facebook the news ~.^), and eat my breakfast.
I actually got a good night’s sleep last night. It felt so great to wake up to these smiling faces. Aren’t they just the cutest little bed buddies you’ve ever seen? They were just lined up next to my face like this.
For awhile a few weeks back, I felt like I didn’t need any one. That I truly had no connections or ties to keep me in place. Not even my babies. But now I’m starting to feel more like myself again and know that these are my kids. I never want to bring a child into this world, so this is it. These are the faces I put all my love and motherly care. And I cannot be parted from them.
I feel pretty pleased with myself today. I took photos of absolutely everything I ate. Lately I’ve been letting nibbles here and there slide and it’s not helping me stay honest with myself.
This morning I had a breakfast of a Starbucks Greek yogurt with honey parfait, mixed with canned pumpkin, pumpkin spice, a spoonful of drippy almond butter, and dried cranberries.