Man I just can’t keep up! =/ Honestly though, I feel like I’m getting back in charge of my life, very slowly, day by day. It feels good but it’s still like sitting on a scared horse that’s ready to bolt at any moment. I just try to hold on tight and keep in control.
When I felt like a smoothie for breakfast, I made one. If I got hungry again later, I know I could eat. This baby was delicious with fresh spinach, nonfat yogurt, 1% milk, frozen mango, coconut oil, and fish oil.
Yesterday felt great. I went to bed at 8:30pm the night before so I got plenty of sleep before my 6am alarm went off for my 60 minute lap swim. It felt so great to be back in the water, besides the fact that I got a bug bite around my right eye during the night so wearing my goggles was a bit painful! >.<
My breakfast consisted of a cup of nonfat Greek yogurt, freezer raspberry jam, peanut butter, and half a cup of Optimum Slim for some crunch.
When my best friend and I had a falling out a few years ago, I bought a book called How to Make Friends and Influence People. I was in a really desperate state: friend-less and lonely. During that time alone though, I really came to accept who I was and liked me for me. It didn’t matter that I didn’t have friends. After we reconciled I sold the book without finishing it. Today though, I found myself wishing I’d hung on to it. Because even though I generally like to be alone (alone meaning with Chase and my babies), sometimes I I find myself just wishing I was one of the those social people. You know, the kind that has plans with friends on the weekend, hell even just someone to sit with at lunch. Why can’t I be just like that?
Anyway, enough about my melancholy unfriendliness. I really don’t try to come off that way, I’m just very selective on who I let in. =/
Less about my social failings and on to the food!
Breakfast today was (you guessed it) Weetabix, thawed strawberries (which turned the milk pink! Yay natural colorants), raisins, and toasted walnuts.
Ahh sleeping-in is glorious. I may have woke up 3 different times, but I rolled over and went right back to sleep just because I could. ^_^ It’s awesome having three days off right before one goes on vacation!
At about 10:30am I couldn’t ignore my stomach any longer however. Luckily, I had some premade pumpkin overnight oats in the fridge and I topped them with almond butter, toasted almonds, and crasins.
Does anyone else not feel like it’s Xmas in 10 days? Because I sure am not feeling the holiday spirit this year. =/ Maybe it’s because of the lack of snow here or lack of family, but I just find myself wanting to feel all warm and fuzzy inside but instead I’m just cold.
Maybe it’s because I’m not where this guy is! Yes, that’s Jim, whom Chase and I just had dinner with last week! He’s in my old room with my bug Dru! Funny how the world works.
Today was a mega lonnngg day. I felt like I was running on empty. It started with me stumbling out of bed at 7am…
Showering and enjoying this bowl of puffed amaranth (1 cup), 2% milk, dried tart cherries, ground flax, and a drizzle of sunflower seed butter. Popping my own amaranth is seriously my new favorite cereal! It’s got such an amazing toasted nutty flavor. <3